Cousins

This week we have my nephew. He and my son are both five. Although, they are very different from one another, they are extremely close friends. It has been so fun through the years to watch their playing turn to friendship. My nephew is going to kindergarten in the fall, but my son will not. So we wanted to get them together one last time before their days are ruled by the school calendar. We decided to wait a year for Evan to start kindergarten. I hated to make the decision. We went back and forth for almost a year, struggling over many valid points. We made the decision when he was three, but now that the time has come that he could go, I'm not at peace with the choice we made. I fear that since we are holding him back, the close relationship Evan has with both his 5 year old cousins will disappear because of the separation of a grade. The thought of this really makes me sad, I tear up as I write this. That reason might not make sense to anyone else, but it's a very saddening thought for me.

Then again, I would not be at peace if we had decided to send him as a very young 5 year old. I would fear his lacking self-control would be a distraction to he and his class mates. We want to make the best decisions for him, but it is so hard - so stinking hard.

So for now, I will help Evan and his cousin have a great week. And I will pray for peace.